I know it sounds old, but both me and Chris we had never gone to a certain point.
Both wanted to wait until marriage.
When I saw Chris out of the closet and meet me my knees were shaking a bit '.
for us would be an unforgettable night.
But not only that I was excited, even Chris was nervous I could see the care with which he settled the pillow before lying down next to me.
But beyond the embarrassment a normal wedding night was wonderful and Cristiano was very sweet with me.
Both were hoping to have a child as soon as possible and that night was the first step towards the realization of our desire.
The first days of marriage were wonderful. Me and the family of Christ we were well and quickly tied together with everyone. My favorite, however, remained
Constance.
She and I had more or less the same age and both had attended the same university, therefore, we had many things in common.
One day when Constance came to see me I heard strange noises coming from the bathroom where he was locked for a moment before.
Concerned that he was ill I went too.
That was not the first time I saw her being sick and suspicious, one day I invited her home to investigate his frequent "unwell".
"Look, Constance probably none of my business but you and Shannon .... here, have you done ...?"
if I did not know how to continue: did you love, you had sex ... it was painful to be there to observe it blush.
Constance to hold back her tears.
"Yesterday I went to the gynecologist ... I confirmed it. I'm pregnant! "
" Oh but it's wonderful! "Exclaimed happy for her.
" No, on the contrary, I ... I do not know what to do. Between me and Shannon is not doing well and I do not know if I will ever have the courage to talk to him about this pregnancy "
Constance was really depressed, but nevertheless continued fingere che tutto andasse bene.
Anch'io mi sentivo molto giù nel vederla così triste e sconsolanta per quel farabutto di Shannon.
Avrei voluto parlarne a Cristiano ma avevo paura che facesse qualche pazzia.
Per lui Costanza era sempre stata come una sorellina e Shannon non gli era mai stato simpatico.
Avrebbe potuto anche ucciderlo.
Così feci l'unica cosa che potei fare. Portai Costanza ad un centro commerciale e le mostrai i bellissimi abiti da sposa che un tempo erano stati il mio sogno.
Costanza era rapita dalla bellezza dei modelli esposti come un tempo lo ero stata io.
"Melissa, perchè did you bring me here? I feel so out of place. I do not know if I will never marry! "
" What I wanted is a higher dose of optimism and self-esteem! Come with me, you'll see that after you hear another one! "
accompagnani The upstairs parlor where he was one of the most famous hairdresser in the city.
After the change of look we decided to do some 'purchases separately, but meet again I did not find the time fixed for more than Constance.
I was very worried about her so I decided to look for it and finally found myself near the garden of the center.
"Hey, what are you doing here all alone?"
"It was too affollatto in there ... I needed to think"
"Think what?" asked scared.
"The child and Shannon. Do not know if I know I can do to raise a child alone!"
"First, you are not alone! You have me, Christian and your entire family. Second, you'll be a very good mom. I'm sure"
After that time the center Costanza no longer seemed so bitter even though Shannon as was expected they defile the word child.
Cristiano when he heard the whole story a lot and was furious not only with Shannon but also with Constance.
I did not understand why he should be angry with her but he kept repeating that he should wait before doing it, just as we did it ourselves.
the end thanks to his parents and two uncles, Chris was able to calm down and accept the situation.
months had passed and now the birthday of mometo Sandie was a joy for the family. All were eager to have another baby in the house.
But I felt so sad because despite our best efforts I still was not pregnant.
Constance often came to visit me and I was a bit feliccissima to pamper '.
But one day, during one of his usual visits, I could not trattanermi.
She did nothing but talk about how annoying it was to feel kick from morning to night while I wanted more from life.
"Ultimately, you are lucky" I said "at least you can feel the joy of being a mother, I do not know if I'll never have that luck!"
"For months Chris and I try to have a baby ... but nothing I can not get pregnant! Maybe I will never have!"
"Oh, Melissa, I did not know! I'm sorry for having behaved like a spoiled child!
'll see that with a little 'patience things will be for the better, trust me "
After the chat with Constance I felt better. It was so sad that I was able to finally talk to someone I had reopened hopes.
few weeks after that 'meeting I was in the bathroom that I was wrong: the same bathroom where I discovered the pregnancy Constance.
I hoped with all my heart that the coincidence would bring me luck.
